Before case presentation
Before the case presentation. I feel a bit stress. I wondered how it is going to be. Could I present it very well? I never expect it will be very soon because I have not prepare very well for it. Besides, we have not being supervise and discuss with our lecturer yet about our case presentation. Thus, I expect the presentation will be postpone. However, my expectation is not true. I just prepare my slides and keep telling myself I just have to do my best. We have done the case presentation at the previous practicum of being a school counsellor. I think maybe because of this fact that make me feel more calm as I have got an idea how it is going to be and thus, the level of nervous is not that high just as 1 out of 10.
During presentation
However, on the day of case presentation, I was shocked to know I was the first presenter and I really did not expect it. What I have told myself, I just have to present. That is the first business to deal with. While doing my presentation, I feel my life like a flowing river that never stops although there is a stone as the boundaries. I keep presenting and share with the audiences what I have done with my client in front of the juries (lecturers and invited guest). I know they will give comments and critiques about my techniques but the reactions that I will get from the juries was not the real main that I focused on. Besides, i have prepare my mind to hear all the positive and negative comments. The thing that my mind is focusing on at that time is to finish my presentation.
After presentation
Alhamdulillah, I have done the presentation. After I have done the presentation, I feel like I am free and happy butterfly that was giving a 100% freedom to fly anywhere I want. I feel like I am giving the total 100% of freedom not to worry about anything anymore. It really wonderful moment I have in my life. It feels like a big stone on my chest has been totally removed from the chest and I do feel relief.
